I have resigned from school 

I did, resigned from school, about 2 weeks ago.  I felt the past 2 weeks to be very strange to me. First of all I knew things weren't going right in school for being in two liberal classes. Second something unexpected pushed me over the edge in getting myself focused in school. Third I felt that I was stressing too much with everything else and losing my mind in the process.

So I ended, for the time, my schooling. I first want to touch base and get together my thoughts. I'm in the process to go back to my home town after thanksgiving. 

So many things I am feeling at the moment that I wish I could have control of it.  One good friend told me that, whatever the circumstance, that we truly don't have control of the things that we wish we could and that to not pay mind of such things. This is true, because I feel that my world is out of control and I wish to help but I feel helpless. Much more I feel unfocus because of the memory of a good friend passing.

My friend Diana Sanchez, who passed away on October 22nd, was a very loving friend. Before she left my quarters in the hospital, when she visited me after my operation, we talked about the close calls that had happen before. This conversation haunts me because just how we spoke about it, it happened. Previously 3 years before I went to school in california, I had a fairwell party with Polo and Diana, in where I celebrated with them. It was one to remember. Diana would be my dance partner for most of my outings with her and polo. Usually my memory stems of joy and happiness. It was always a rush of things happening. Then I remembered going to Polo's place 4 years ago and fixing his computer. This is when I started to learn more about Diana. One thing for sure - when I come back home, I will not feel joy but profound sadness.

But I have to go home, to say my goodbye. I have to touch base, because I would lose my mind if not. So I had to let go of the norm and find my way back home again to have closure. 

Rest in peace Diana Sanchez - I'll be missing you lots.

- g -

 Hi folks!

     I wanted to make an update. I'm now ready to go out and get some experience in the workforce! Yup! You heard that right! Currently of course this will help me vastly to get on the next plateau. Yes sir, with this I will need to keep pulling through. The other fact as well is I need to be a bit more organized. I should schedule my google once again, but ugh every time I do I just put it off. I guess I have to re-read this article again to remind me that I am not so smart and can't let my future self down.

Until later folks.